Category Archives: art

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How meditation helped me today

When I woke up this morning, I felt like my mind had already been up for hours. I had the sensation of waking up into the already-in-progress thoughts moving to and fro, worries ebbing and flowing, problems to be solved trying to work themselves out and heartfelt and energetic thoughts of love and support extending out for my loved ones. It felt like, even though my body had been asleep, *I* hadn’t been. By the time I got Amira onto her bike and pedaling off…

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Work in Progress

A few days ago, I had the thought: “Aren’t I lucky to have this problem?” I know! It sounds happy-slappy and delusional. Yet, I actually felt a zing of gratitude, possibility and not quite joy but something related to it. I have themes that are ongoing challenges in my life. Fear. Self-love. Freedom of self-expression. They come up, in so many different ways, over and over again. I’ve gotten so exhausted by myself and my own issues. But when I had that thought, “I am…

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Setting Sail

About halfway through this painting, I was lamenting in my mind: “Art is hard!” The painting was, at that point, vertically oriented. The lines of color in it were strict and tight. I had a clear vision of what I wanted to express with it. The basic structure was complete and the paint was dry. Looking at it hard and long, I had been letting it sit. I just didn’t know what to do next. The colors were conversing, but the painting was uptight and…

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The change that goals require

My goal is to post something new, every day, on Patreon. A week has passed since my last post. In part, I have been busy with life, getting my daughter ready for 6th grade, and trying to cram in as many last-minute summer activities as we can.  It has been busy and time flies. The thing is, I made a goal. Life will happily and readily fill in my available time slots for me. That’s just how life is. And if life isn’t filling in…

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Making friends with struggle

struggle intransitive verb strug·gle : to try very hard to do, achieve, or deal with something that is difficult or that causes problems : to move with difficulty or with great effort : to try to move yourself, an object, etc., by making a lot of effort – Mirriam-Webster I struggled with this painting. I worked on it for weeks. I started it to be a possible match for a friend who commissioned me for some artwork for her new home. I was so excited…

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The courage to practice art

Yesterday, I was working on a painting for a dear friend that she commissioned from me. I’ve been painting, tweaking, looking, experiment and trying so hard on this piece. It just will not come together. I was so frustrated that I just about broke down and cried. Actually, when Paul came in and asked how I was doing, a few tears did fall. I watched a video short with Ta-Nehisi Coates. In it he says: I think breakthroughs come from putting an inordinate amount of pressure on yourself…

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Trying more than twice… a lot more

I never learned how to draw. I paint abstracts because I love color, pattern and texture. But, I also paint abstracts because I can’t draw. I’ve never taken an art class. Well, almost never. I started a Drawing 101 course in college. I dropped out pretty quickly because everyone in it was an art major and had been drawing the better part of forever. I was better suited for ‘How to draw a recognizable stick figure’… Today, Amira was practicing her piano. It hadn’t yet…

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A warm welcome home

Last weekend, we decided to get out of our 5 mile by 5 mile stomping grounds and head down to La Jolla for the day. Our first stop was what will forever be, in my mind, the La Jolla Contemporary Museum of Art. It is now the Museum of Contemporary Art San Diego. They have two locations, La Jolla and Downtown. (On a different note… Anyone know the thinking or idea behind the ‘X’ logo they are using?) The museum still seems new to me…

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A Journey to Your Creative Heart – 10 week online course

10 week online course inspired by Julia Cameron’s The Vein of Gold – $70 A Journey to Your Creative Heart I’m so excited to announce this course! I’ve had it in mind for several months now. And now, it’s ready and it’s going to be good! This online course is about overcoming obstacles within yourself and in your life that limit you. When you succeed, even in small bits, you’ll find an abundance of energy and creativity waiting for you to apply it wherever you…

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Written for me, because I trust myself.

Do you trust yourself? I was raised not to. Being raised in a brand of the Christian church, what I was taught was I am always suspect. And not just suspect, but guilty. Themes that were branded into my mind and soul included: I’m not safe. I am my enemy. I cannot count on myself. I can’t trust myself. I am not good. I am fundamentally fucked. (Forgive the language, but the crude rawness of it expresses it best.) I’m not loved. I was taught…

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I woke up “in a mood” this morning.  I’m certain it’s related to a week plus of not getting enough sleep.  That’s a lesson you’d think I would learn by now.  I’ve been averaging about 5 to 5 1/2 hours a night and this girlie just can’t function well on that.  I wish I could, but it’s plain that I can’t. I self-medicated by painting.  Quick and fun pieces with color, texture and play.  It helped. Since the beginning of this new year, I’ve been…

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